Jun 18 2010

Visions of the Past and Future

I wrote the following vignette last winter while exploring the topic of my life purpose with my coach. It tries to capture the essence of what feels most alive for me at the moment through a brief impressionistic scene. I notice myself returning to it again and again so I thought it appropriate to share it with you.

Countless of millennia ago, a tribe gathers around a fire to listen to its aging shaman…

Throwing a handful of dust into the fire, the shaman recounts his final vision:

“I saw wise men in orange robes being cruelly killed with magical spears. I saw ancient writings left in the dust, wise words falling on deaf ears. Mighty tribes building abodes that touch the clouds, old people everywhere, elders nowhere. Messages from everywhere to anywhere moving in the blink of an eye. Shelters, robes, people, places looking entirely different every spring.

“I saw a mighty tree, reaching up to the sky. I saw thunder clouds gathering. And the tree was withering. Supporting its mighty bulk was but the tiniest of roots. Would it last the storm, only time would tell.

“That tree, my children, is our tribe, ages and ages hence.”

With great effort the old shaman rises up and lifts his gaze from the fire.

“When that time comes, I will not be here. By then, neither will you nor your great-grandchildren. By then our tools will be obsolete, our names and language long forgotten. But there is wisdom alive in this very moment, wisdom that can be carried on and refined, and transmitted to that day.

“Who of you will carry that torch?”


Jun 2 2010

Fear, Truth, and Freedom

I must admit I have not been entirely truthful with you. In fact I have even lied to myself.

I did not need so many months to complete my thesis, writing my business plan is not as hard as I make it out to be, and I do not need more knowledge and practice to get started with coaching, training, or facilitation.

Fact of the matter is, I am scared.

In setting up my own business and making a living out of what I love, I have—possibly for the first time in my life—a challenge I am not sure I can meet.

The Fire that Burns

By endlessly psychologizing my experience and coming up with seemingly legitimate excuses, I am robbing myself the power, and even freedom, that comes with this fear. Writing these words, I already feel the fear being mixed up with and transmuted into excitement.

The very fear that holds us back can be the pulse of life that pushes us forward. Are you willing to pick up the fire that burns you and follow its light?

I know I am.